I can only hope to look this good when I get this age.
I know that I’m not exactly what others would consider as old, but I’m starting to feel the effects of getting older. Right now it’s only mental. Even though it’s not effecting me on a physical level just yet, there are things I want to do with this life that I have fail to yet do. For one, I’ve always wanted to travel the world, at least once. But I’m 36 and travelling doesn’t seem like it’s going to be something that happens for me in my near future. I’m trying to stay optimistic. But you know how things happen or don’t happen, and you just find yourself being stagnate, existing from one day to the next, not really living? Well, that’s how life has been for me all of these years. All I’ve ever done is let other people tell me what my next move is going to be, and I have to say, I’m getting real tired of others dictating my life.
I know things could have changed for me a long time ago if I took a chance. But my problem is I like to live too safe. With this seemingly new faze of life, I want to be fearless when it comes to things I want to do and have never done. I know it’s going to take a lot of self reflecting or maybe a little less, but I think I’m up for the challenge. There are to many ways to have fun in this life, I have yet to experience, and it would be a shame if I went through life without experiencing a lot of the simple joys this world has to offer.
My hopes for 2019 are to become more carefree, fun loving, and fearless, three things I’ve never been. I’m sure it’s going to be a bit of a struggle, but I’m sure I’ll have fun trying. Like they say most fears are worth over coming. Also it’s way more scarier in your head then it actually is once you do it.
So here’s to going into another year. I hope everyone is blessed with love, longevity, financial security, and a life full of living!!
Love you all!!!!
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