How well do you know yourself?
I chose this as my opening statement because a lot of us deal with things, all because we believe we can’t or don’t deserve to have better. Or we just except our circumstances because we haven’t learned there are better ways of living.
I’m sure daily, you’ve gone through many unwanted, not so great feelings of emotion, that you’ve learned to stuff down, just to get through the day.
That isn’t they way life should be. You should never feel like, “I just need to get through it.”. Do you remember when you were a kid and all you could think of was what you would be able to do when you got grown?
Well, you’re grown now…. What are you doing about it? Do you have that life you’ve always dreamed of? Or are you living a life full of mediocrity, because you’re to scared to leave that box of comfort and complacency?
For a long time, I’ve let others determine how I walk my path in life. Not really taking on the responsibility of living the life I truly want, because I’m afraid of failing. But I’ve learned, failure is something I’m gonna to have to grow to except, if I want to make this life become that dream life I always wanted.
What I’ve learned on this two month vacation, I will take with me through life. During this time I really got to learn me all over again. What I learned during this time; I love people, I don’t like structured environments, I love freedom over any other feeling, and I’m strong enough without the aid of a relationship.
I have to say, learning all of this and gaining strength and confidence in myself is a gift I’ve always had, but because of past circumstances I lost that bold fun loving girl, I use to be. Because of those circumstances, I learned a long time ago how fit into the space I was given. For so long, I couldn’t express how I really felt, because there was always some form of retaliation once I did.
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But the beautiful thing about becoming an adult is, you have more control over your energy, and who you allow to be in it. You don’t have to be around those people who bring you down, or the ones who only know you when they need something, or those “friends” who manipulate you into doing something you don’t want to. There isn’t anything wrong with shutting these people out of your life. Don’t let them make you feel like there is. Sometime you have to cut others off, so you can become the best version of “you”; and there’s nothing wrong with that. You even have Oprah telling you the same thing, so listen up and know those situations were given to you, so you could learn and grow from them.
Remember you have one life. What you decide to do with it is nobodies fault but your own. So when you get to the end of life; do you want to wonder would could have happened or are you going to have the balls to go out and make some s*** happen? The choice is yours.
If you are someone like myself who is or has developed an introverted personality; try everyday to change your reality. Sis it’s all in your head. The truth is, most people forget you as soon as you walk away; and chances are, you’re not doing anything they haven’t seen before, anyway. So get out your head and do you, without the fear of judgement; because the reality is no one’s judging you as hard as you’re judging yourself.
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