Good Afternoon!!!
Hope you are finding happiness and fulfillment where ever you are.
There seems to have been so many things that have begun to go right! I might feel that way because my perception changed. I have started to see the changes that are coming in to play as necessary obstacles I have to experience to get to my next bridge in life.
I was so focused on loosing what I had that I couldn’t appreciate what is soon to be. Granted the good things that have happened are small in comparison to the growth I’ve experienced over these 5 years. But I know that I can no longer be a back set driver when it comes to my life, decisions, energy, and my level of comfort are all things I left up to other people to decide. As I’ve gotten older I’ve realized “NO” knows what’s best for you but you.
See what I was doing was allowing myself to become complacent. At first I was excited and things were good, then as time went on things slowly began to change. If you have no idea what I’m speaking of, I’m talking about my failed relationship. The one thing I have to say, I’m a queen at adapting to other peoples moods. I will adapt so effortlessly that I won’t even realize that I’ve adapted to fit into that persons pocket of comfortability. I say this because it is soooo true! For the longest time I was allowing myself to be uncomfortable in order not to make those around me feel that same exact way.
It really does become a disease to please, because when you’ve done it so much that you don’t realize when you do it…. it’s a problem; that needs to be fixed!
Now I’m moving on to what I believe will become something bigger and much better then my previous situation.
To all the grown folks who had to deal with people looking down on them or clowning them because you had to move back in with family, I commend you. It’s not easy admitting you failed; or not even that, you have a bigger vision that has a greater possibility of coming to fortition if you don’t have to stress so hard about bills and other things that come up when you live on your own. The help is needed and definitely appreciated. So don’t get stuck feeling like you failed because things didn’t work out like you thought.
Like I keep hearing:
“Maybe that wasn’t the vision God had for you.”
Hope you enjoyed this blog and that it also brought you some kind of comfort, if you happen to be going through a big transition in your life.
As Always