What’s up? How is everyone doing today?
There is something that I’ve start doing that I’ve failed time and time again at. I’ve finally realized the reasoned I failed is because of my mindset.
I’m still in the beginning stages, pressing myself forward. But this time feels different than any time before. I think it has a lot to do with starting therapy and not being romantically entangled with anyone.
Before this stage of my life I always had a boyfriend. To be honest, I stayed and kept one for a lot of reasons. But the most profound reasons were for love and validation.
At the time I had no idea I felt so empty. The only time I would realize this was when I started to think about the lack of a male figure in my life. At the time I had no idea not having my father would play such a pivotal role. But the older I got the more I began to see how uncomfortable I was around the opposite sex (boyfriends excluded). This was largely do to not growing up seeing a positive model of a male.
But over the past few months I found that missing piece. I am happy to say I have a relationship with both my parents now. We’re still building. But the great thing is I finally have developed a relationship with my father.
For so long I allowed depression and self doubt to get in my way. I’m finally finding ways to push past those obstacles.
I’ve come to realize pushing past the downfalls helps build character; and I’m in character building mode.
In the coming months you’ll be able to attest to what I’m saying. I don’t want to give to much. All I’m gonna say is it’s going to be a big shift.
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