I hope everyone is having a great Memorial Day. Truthfully speaking I’m just happy that I work for a company that allows they’re employees to have so many days off and still have a job!
There have been many things on my mind, recently. I believe this is due to school closing for the summer and I’m at that point that I want to trust myself to go out and be a real entrepreneur. The drawback is being wrong, and ending up broke for the summer. When I tell you that is a real fear of mine, that is no lie! Not being able to physically or financial take care of myself scares me. What I’m learning along the way is; regardless of the fear I’m gonna have to put on my big girl draws and push through anyway.
See, what I’ve done up until this point is, sit in the fear and never changed anything about myself. I knew I was doing this; I just had no idea that by doing this it caused me never to evolve into a better version of myself. The other reason is; change is hard, and I never put in the effort to change the pitfalls that kept me stagnant. For the longest time I thought it was something I would be able to work around.
At this point I’m learning about the different things I’m not to fond of about myself, and learning what to do to change it. This is something I should have learned a long time ago. Truth be told I’m happy to be going through this period of awareness. All I used to do before was allow people to push me around and tell me what to do. Doing this never allowed me to get to know myself and what I truly wanted out of life. I’m sure that’s why money is such a major focus for me. Long story short I equate money to Freedom and Power. Two things I’ve never had at the same time.
Plans for the Summer
There are gonna be a lot of things I’m gonna to be doing. I figure it’s best if I let you all know what I’m doing this summer, so you all can hold me accountable. I’m sure I’m probably cramming to many things into a month and a half. So just as a rough draft I plan to:
- Create a decal for promotion of my business Lulu’s Lavish Lathers.
- Podcasting 3x a week
- YouTube 4x times a week
- Publish another book
- Rewrite first published book
- Create sharable story in parts 5x a week.
- Drive for either DoorDash/ Uber or both.
- Achieve my goal of working for myself.
These are things I’ve written down on the daily, but have not whole heartedly pursued. All because I’m afraid of being wrong. As I stated before; this is my turning point and the time I’m going to be afraid but I’m gonna work through it anyway.
If you have experienced something similar or you’re currently experiencing it; please make sure to leave a comment stating what you did to get over it. If you’re like me and still trying to find your way through it; maybe we can get through it together.