Good Morning good people of the internet!!!
I hope life is treating you well.
For a long time I wrote because I never knew how to express myself in real time. Many emotions I keep bottled up. I speak about them but I haven’t found ways to overcome the emotions of fear and extreme anxiety.
Many times I would blame something like this on that time of the month. But I know for sure that isn’t the case. I feel this way because there are so many of my family and friends out here living their best lives’; and I have no clue how to just go out there and do the same. So I guess you could say what I’m feeling is jealously, emptiness, and a sense of not being good enough.
I understand that the only way to change and become better and feel better about myself and accomplishments is to branch out and try new things. Doing this is going to be apart of my daily practices. By doing this I’m praying it’ll loosen me up to enjoy ewrything has to offer.
Another thing I would like to mention. Is my need to be attached to someone and the need for me to understand and know exactly who I am is something I’m currently working on.
Please keep me in your prayers.