What’s up people?!! Hope everyone is doing more than fine.
There was something that just came to mind. I’m sure if you have a pulse and you are in your mid to late thirties you’ve been with someone who tricked you into believing they loved you. That’s one of the reasons I don’t get involved with anyone. I don’t want to accidentally catch feelings for someone who’s using me as a filler.
I know that life was created for us to experience it, but I refuse to continuously be careless with my heart. I’m to the point of living the rest of my days out as a single woman. I kind of thought of being poly, but when I’m in it I’m not sure I’d be okay with sharing my person. The only way I feel something like being poly would work out is if all their energy was spent making me feel special. Truth be told, I need a lot of attention; far more than I’ve ever got from any man I’ve dated.
The other thing is, relationships for me have never gone the way I’ve wanted them too. I’ve always been the one to get hurt in the end. I think the problem is I expect way too much from them. I’ve always said my ideal relationship would be something like Anastasia Steel and Christian Grey from the Fifty Shades of Grey Trilogy. The love he had for her showed in everything he did. He loved her so intensely. That is the type of love I’m wanting. Someone who can go through the motions with me, but still through it all assure me that his love will never waiver.
Asking for something like that I now is a very tall order, because so many of these men and women out here believe cheating on your significant other is as normal as breathing. So many men and women (my age and younger) don’t believe in monogamy.
If I’m honest, I’ve always dreamed of finding my person. People who know me would call me a romantic (I am). I love to be in love. I think I fall in love so fast because I’m in love with the idea of being in love. This has never gotten me the type of relationship I’ve wanted so I’ve decided to take a break.
I’m not giving up just yet, but I am going to be very cautious with my heart and everything connected to it.
If you have found love and you believe I’m doing myself a disservice in taking a break in this quest for love, please tell me about your love stories. I would love to hear about them.
Coming from a true romantic at heart.
As Always. Thank you soo much for Reading!!!