There’s always something to worry about. At the moment livelihood is the one thing that concerns me. The only thing I know is working. That’s why when it comes down to doing my own thing it’s so hard to do, because I’m stuck in a place of obedience. I remember when I was growing up my mind was boundless. There were so many things I wanted to do with my life. But instead I found myself trying to play catch up because there’s no room in this world for people who are shy and easily intimidated.
Over the years I found that I had become the person I never wanted to be, and that is a person who is meek, calm, and scary. Meek because it’s extremely hard for me to talk to knew people unless it’s to get a job done. Calm because people purposely say hurtful things to me or do hurtful things in hopes to get a reaction or just for the sake of doing it; and I manage to keep the same temperament no matter what. I guess everyone reacts to pain differently. I chose to hide mine, forget about it and be more concerned with what other people are feeling. Because of that, I feel like I lost myself. I never realized that I would have conversation with myself because I was trying to always be the better person. God forbid I say how I really feel.
But the time for me to become that very outspoken child has past and now I need to become an outspoken adult. One movie I want to recommend seeing is Second Act. When I say that movie inspired me; I almost feel like the story could have easily been about me. Only thing is, at the time I’m not the head of a big corporation, but I’m on my way to having my own freedom; what ever that may look like for me. All I know is I haven’t felt this free in a long, long time.
I hope you enjoyed this post. Please feel free to leave a comment. Would love to know when was the first time you felt boundless freedom.