I hope everyone is well. I know it’s been a long while since I’ve posted something. As most of you know my health hasn’t been working to better me.
As of now I feel that is changing because I figured out what was wrong. Can you take a guess?…..
As the days go by I’m starting to feel a lot better. I have a doctor’s appointment, but that won’t be happening till the end of the month. So naturally I had to find something that was going to help me out in some way.
I can’t even begin to tell you the discomfort I’ve felt over the last couple of months. But I still found a way to push through.
During this time I’ve also realized there’s nothing to really be afraid of. The only thing any of us should be afraid of is lose of life.
That’s why I’m learning if there’s something you want to do, you need to go ahead and do it, because you never know if you’re going to have that chance again.
Just a quick little something. Blogs will be getting long and more in depth over the next few days.
As always I hope your day is extremely productive and pleasant.
I want to try something different. I want to give you who don’t know how it is to live with paranoia and different phobias and fears a series.
It won’t be too different from my posts now. For the most part I post what I’m experiencing at the current time. Well…. what I want to do is check in with y’all once a week letting you know how I’m dealing with my agoraphobia and paranoia.
So allow me to get this ball rolling. I’ve always been concerned with what others think of me. Many days it consumes me to the point of paralysis. It’s a constant struggle to allow others into my mental space.
I’ve never wanted to be a fully functional adult as bad as I want to now. Over the years I’ve allowed my childhood and different experiences from it to debilitate me from being a carefree spirit.
I know I have it in me, but it’s a struggle to let go of everything I’ve ever learned growing up. It weighs on me like a truck. At times I feel like I’m losing my mind!
The sad part is the only way I’ve managed to find a release is through my writing. The people around me don’t seem to realize how deeply the energy of others affects me.
I’m sure some may think I’m crazy. But like many things it’s debatable.
Well I have to bring this to a close. I have to go back.
If you or anyone you know is experiencing these feelings, please dont brush it off. You never know how deeply what you say may affect them.
As always I was taking a deep dive into my brain. The thought of today pertains to the media and the way they target the young. I’m sure a lot of us think about it, but we never say anything about it.
They don’t focus on people that are in or nearing their 30’s because they know that’s when the light comes on; and a lot of stupid things we use to worry about, we don’t anymore. Also most of us are set in our ways. If we don’t want something there is no way you’re going to get a 30 something woman are man to buy it.
Older people tend to understand the importance of a dollar; some more than others. Another thing, people who came from nothing, are also people who learn how to make their money work for them and not the other way around. You just have to be willing to learn, and know you don’t know everything.
That’s one reason I’m sure they target children, teens and young adults; because many industries, company, and organizations know this large group of adolescents are very impressionable. That’s why a lot of these household companies and names have been paid so much; because they know how to make what could be potentially bad for you, look good.
An ad from maybe 50 to 60 years ago, that made smoking look cool.
There are so many things American people don’t know. Not because of companies keeping information from us, but for the fact that many of us are lazy or in denial and think, “Our government wouldn’t do that to us.” Bull****!!! The one’s who run this country are the 1%. Do you really believe they care about you and your health? We do have some people that actually care. But the amount of people who do care verses the amount of those who don’t is very slim. Also, money is the name of the game. For those 1%; if it don’t make money, it don’t make sense.
That’s why I believe these industries have come up with ways to make veganism cool or tolerable, for lack of a better word. I’ve said this before; being a vegan is the best way of life. But that only applies if your diet consists of at least 85 to 95% organically grown plant based foods. No manufactured foods. Just what God put here for us to eat.
I realize I’m going way off subject. But, this is just one example of how industries take advantage of young adolescents. Through the ages they’ve even geared something as toxic as smoking towards teens. Trying to make it seem normal and none harmful. When in reality it has and continues to cause cancer. Truth be told, there are so many things we consume daily, that aren’t and never have been good for us. Many of us don’t even eat food anymore. We eat chemicals and carcasses. I know that may sting, but it’s the truth.
Final thought: There is always going to be some new thing that are going to seem like the best thing since sliced bread. But your job is not to be tricked into consuming something, just because it is the new fad. But get it because it offers abundant value.