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Anti-Social People Person

What’s up? How are ya’ll doing today?

I’m sure you’re looking at the title and you’re like, ” Does that even make any sense?” To be honest, I wouldn’t have known anything like this existed if it wasn’t me going through it. It’s not fun, let me tell you that.

It’s like I love and care about everyone that I’ve ever come in contact with. But, most times I’m either afraid to say something or I’m on a crabby mood and I don’t want to say anything. Either way it’s uncomfortable.

If I weren’t so emotional and cared how others viewed me, I would be at peace right now. I wouldn’t be tormented by my interactions with others. Worry if I was nice enough, if I came off rude, or if they liked me.

What I’ve found out is; personality types such as the INFP( my personality type) are highly sensitive and are constantly seeking the approval from others. Learning this early on would have helped me realize why I’m so different from others.

I’m sure many probably won’t believe this is a real thing. But for me it has helped me a lot in realizing who I am . Also letting me know I’m not that weird because there are other people out there just like me.

If you’re a antisocial people person don’t fret because you have a friend in me.

As Always

empowering · Experiences · self-esteem

Self Worth

Good Morning!!!

I know I’ve been M.I.A for a good while now. That was do in part to my health. But as the days pass I’m feeling better.

Well let’s get to the blog; shall we?

I’m sure this isn’t the first time I’ve written about it or you’ve read something else from someone else regarding the same topic. But, I want to give you my viewpoint.

We always want someone who’s gonna do for us what the next person won’t.

But….. have you ever thought of it from the viewpoint of; “I’m that person who won’t do those things for myself?”

We hear it over and over again about self worth. How we’re not suppose to allow someone to come in and take up space if they have no respect for us. But we never think of; Why does it  happen in the first place?”

Many of us allow these time wasters and cum critters to waste our time because we weren’t taught from young how to spot and what to do when they come your way. That’s why you have so many Good women and men out here marrying and wasting decades with ain’t s*** people.

As I’ve gotten older I’ve learned; If you can’t have a great time by yourself, how the hell are you supposed to have fun with somebody else?!

So many of us are looking for another person to save us. Many of us go whole life times expecting to find that one person who’s going to take us away from all the sad, upset, confusing things or people that are our life. Not realizing we are who we’re looking for.

See, one of the saddest things to learn when you’ve lived all your days and still haven’t found happiness is;

You are your own hero. You had the power to change your reality all along.

So to those who don’t believe happiness begins with self worth and discovery. Please reevaluate your values and morals.

I’m really just trying to save those of us out here who have the mindset of, “If he/she leaves me, what kind of life will I have without them?”

There are people everyday taking their own life or someone else’s because the person they chose made a different choice and decided to be with someone else.

I understand love makes us do some crazy things while we’re in it. That’s why the best person for you to fall for first and always is YOU. One thing’s for sure, you’re never leaving YOU.

Might be a little corny but as long as you keep this in mind breakups will be way easier. “Self Worth Makes the Dream Work”.

Remembering that and really practicing it will put people on high alert as to how to handle you. What that means is; once people realize you’re good with them in or out of your life, they’ll either straighten up real quick or exit stage left. Keep in mind no love lost. It’s just you have found your voice and realized your worth; and you’ve realized you’re not down for the Tom Foolery anymore.

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As Always

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First Day Back

Getting ready trying to keep the over thinker at bay.

To remind you guys, I haven’t been at work since March. For some this may not seem like a big deal. For me though it’s the biggest hump I’m gonna have to get over; especially because my seclusion which became my normal is not gonna be a thing anymore. Reason being… school is starting in a mere week.

I know I shouldn’t over think this, but I have a tendency to over think things. Then the thing I began over thinking gives me anxiety, then it just becomes a rabbit hole filled with emotions.

To be honest I believe that’s why I loved being on my own; I didn’t feel obligated to socialize. But the deeper I dig into this empath thing I realize not wanting to socialize and be around others was my participating in the numbing process.

Had to share this with you all because this is my therapy. I’m working on correcting this behavior. I don’t want to be the weird one for ever.

As Always

Experiences · Feelings · health · Informative · self-esteem · Thoughts

Social Anxiety!!!!

Hey everyone. Hope you’re having a lovely productive day.

My topic if choice today is social anxiety. I chose this topic because it is something I battle with on a day to day basis. I can’t say that I have been medically diagnosed, but I’m sure that is what this is.

Everyday I dread going outside of my house. Not because I hate going outside, because I love nature. I’m just not a fan of meeting and speaking to new people. Don’t get me wrong I would love to expand the number of friends I have. I just become very frustrated, flustered and uncomfortable when meeting new people.

I wish socializing came easy to me like breathing, but it doesn’t. My mind is constantly filled with negative thoughts of how my interaction with the next person is going to play out.

It’s not as if I’m asking them to do something. That is definitely not the case. It’s more of wanting them to except and love me for who I am.

I never understood it, but I always have strived for approval of every person that has ever entered my life; from my Mom all the way done to the cashier at the grocery store. I know that no one has a great relationship with everyone they every met. If they do it’s usually because they are not being true to themselves, in most cases.

So at the current moment I’m working on me and taking steps to having a better quality of life.

Who has felt like this?

If you have, it would be nice to know I’m not alone.

As always

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Gay, Straight or Love

I think there is a real problem with people who believe they can change or should change the way someone else lives. I never understood why some people think that because they think it should be that way, it should be that way for everyone. I get there are people out here that don’t like people who like those who like the same sex or like both sexes. There is nothing wrong with that, if you keep your opinion to yourself; unless asked. I’m sure a lot of us grew up believing being gay, bi-sexual, pan-sexual, transsexual, and transgender where wrong. But how can you tell someone else how to live their life? I understand that some parents don’t want their children to be any of those things, because they don’t want them to have a hard life or because they just think it’s not right; but friends family and people looking in it’s not your choice.

I was having a discussion with someone and he didn’t understand why I don’t have a problem with people who like the same sex or those who get top and bottom surgeries or those who consider themselves another sex. I tried explaining to him that everyone has a different way they look at the world and the people and things in it, and who are we to judge someone because of how they want to live and who they want to be with. We are not judge and jury. We are all on the same level. It’s not like God said to us their is a specific way I want you to live this life. I know a lot of people will disagree and say it says it in the Bible. It may, but that Bible was also written by man not by God himself. If you are someone that believes whole heartily in the words of the Bible, I am in no way trying to discredited your beliefs; I’m only stating a point, that man wrote it and everything is left to interpretation.

I really just want those boys and girls out there who are going through something because they are different, to know that God made you exactly the way he wanted you to be; there are no mistakes.

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