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Hi Possibilities! I’m here for it!

Good Morning Everyone!

I’m feeling pretty good today. There are so many things that are right with the world as there are so many things that are wrong with it. It all depends on your perception of the things around you. It’s so easy to see the negative when the positive is staring you straight in the face. I really never understood why that is. For that positive thing to stand out it has to be more positive than the negative is negative; if you understand where I’m coming from.

But other than positives and negatives, today is going to be the last day I’m going to be at my current residence. I have until the end of the month to move but I figured I would give the last week of peace to my roommate. For you who don’t know we started off in a relationship then the act he had been putting on the first couple of years became too much for him and that’s when he started showing his true colors. For a long time I thought I was over reacting when I had feelings of isolation and being smothered by his controlling ways. Then I got conformation from those around me that I was not crazy for thinking and feeling the way I did. They say what I so desperately did not want to admit; that he was controlling and not the right fit for me…..

I was going to say, ” I wish they would have said something sooner” but I understand why they did not; because they knew I wasn’t ready to hear it and as a result of that I would have possibly cut them out of my life. Then that act would have had me deeper entangled into his web of misery and control.

For the longest time I thought he was so controlling and judgmental because he wanted the best for me and because of the love he had toward me. Later I realized it was for his own peace of mind. See; he had been cheated on serval times and as a result he became paranoid and believed I would do the same. So going in I didn’t realize his foundation was tainted by all those past experiences he had with other women. See it didn’t matter how transparent I was through out, because in the end he accused me of cheating anyway.

So inconclusion I just want to say to the women and men in relationships you have to constantly prove your loyalty; you might as well quit while you’re ahead. I may be wrong but once a person comes into any kind of relationship not trusting the other person, people or thing they’ll never learn to let down their guard and let you in. It’s going to take a hard lesson to open their eyes. So don’t waste your time or energy repeatedly proving yourself to that person when you’ve done nothing wrong to begin with.

I really hope you’ve enjoyed this blog. As always I enjoy creating them for you. Please do me the favor of sharing this blog in hopes of helping it to grow. 

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Short stories

How it’s gonna be…..

Good Morning!

 

I feel a little bit better today. Not much has changed but the way I feel. I don’t feel as irritated and angry. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me. I’ve realized it’s good to hold your true emotions back sometime.

Well any, there is so much to be grateful for. Sometimes the ways of the world get in the way. You don’t realize how blessed you are because you have something in your life blocking you form that realization. That was me yesterday. I just felt inconvenienced and wanted to shut myself off from the world. I have to admit though, that is me on an everyday basis. Not because I don’t like people, mainly because I want to protect my energy.

People that I’ve grown up with and even my mother thinks I’m a little too sensitive because I take on other people’s problems as my own. I’m sorry! I don’t know how else to be. I’ve always internalized all problems, even if they weren’t mine. I understand that is something I need to work on. That is one of the main reasons I can’t be around certain people; because they will drain me of my energy. Whether you realize it or not it takes a lot of energy to really care about the next person’s problems.

At times I felt that I was an emotional dumping ground. That’s why I’m trying to prepare myself for when I move in with my mom. I know that I’m not going to be able to be home too often because she likes to invite people over; then wants me to come out and greet those people. She just doesn’t understand how uncomfortable that is for me.

Some times I get into moods where I don’t want to talk to anyone. When I’m around her, I have to talk to the people around her; if I don’t, I feel regretful of not saying anything to the other person, because I’m stuck thinking about the way I made them feel because I didn’t acknowledge them.

To be honest it’s a viscous cycle. That’s one of the main reasons I’m a person that like to stay to myself. The only time you’ll see me around other people is when I have to be or when it’s people I know really well and I consider them my friend. Not that I don’t have times when I can talk to complete strangers, because I can also do that; and have lovely conversations with them. I just believe over time I’ve allowed my shyness to dictate the way I live my life.

I have tried working on that, and I’m gonna to continue to work on that. The bad thing about being shy is never feeling free enough to do what you feel, and it’s not good in business either. That is another reason I need to work on getting passed this stage.

Do you know anyone who has this problem? And if that person is you, how are you helping yourself through this process?

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Experiences · Feelings · motivational

Hard Work Ahead

Good morning Good people!!!

As always hope everything is well….

I’ve been at this thing for a couple of years now, but nothing seems to be taking off. I’m sure that I could have put more effort into the things I’ve started. To be honest I know the only way that I’m going to get seen is if I do something that involves more connectivity.

Meaning: YouTube, or a Podcast. Those I feel are going to be the only things that are going to help me to get to the level of success I want to reach.

Some of you may know what I’m talking about, but I’m sure a lot of you don’t. I’m speaking about all the things I’ve tried to do over the years to make life a lot more bearable for me. For example: Writing books, creating this blog, starting YouTube, and my most recent endeavor; soap making.

When I say I want to be my own boss, I mean it whole heartedly. I’ve always said this from the time I was little. It’s only in the last 5 yrs that I’ve had the opportunity to put effort towards this quest.

What worries me, is there are going to be some changes in the next couple of months. I’m praying these changes won’t hinder my growth or disrupt my focus.

I’m worried because, for the past couple of years my family and friends haven’t had access to me like they will once this move takes place.

I have to be honest it’s been nice not getting the surprise pop-up visits. Don’t get me wrong I love my friends and family. It’s just sometimes I want to be by myself, and I fear that there won’t be much time for that soon.

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Experiences · Feelings · health · Informative · Thoughts

Healthy Movement

I’ve been going to the gym for the past couple of days. I can’t really say why I feel the urge to go know, I just do. The only thing is, I hope to stay consistent. There have been many times I’ve started going and then stopped because of my really bad anxiety. But when I go, I feel 10x better than I feel when I don’t go. The sad part about it; I know I’m doing something that is going to help me live a better quality of life, it’s going to give me more energy, strengthen my brain, improve my sex life and a long list of other benefits.

Also if you don’t want to go to the gym, you have many more alternatives.

Improve Quality of Life by doing these Activities, Consistently.

  1. Rock Climbing
  2. Swimming
  3. Basketball
  4. Volleyball
  5. Dancing
  6. Take a walk
  7. Parasail
The possibilities are endless. The key is to get out and move.

Possible affects of getting older, without consistent MOVEMENT

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I can’t front, the main reason I’m becoming concerned with movement and exercise; I’m getting older. As a result of that, I’ve been feeling like I need to move more now; so I’ll be able to take care of myself later. I don’t want to be like a lot of people my age. Sad to say, I see a lot of them not doing to well. They usually are sick, or stiff (limited range of motion). Some of them are even to the point of having to have they’re children do everything for them. I don’t have any children, so that means I would either have to pay someone to take care of me or start taking care of myself now, so I can be active and mobile, all the way up to the time I’m suppose to leave this earth.
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Growing up, when I was living with my Grandmas and Aunts, they cooked on the regular. When I started living with my Mom she didn’t cook as much because she had to work. So health wasn’t the focus; there was to much to manage other than what I and she ate. Not saying what my Aunts and Grandmas cooked was healthy. It was just that it was home made, unlike things you buy from some restaurants and fast food places. You never know what you could be digesting. That’s why I believe so many of us are overweight; for the mere fact, we are eating things that were never meant for our bodies to digest.
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That’s another reason I believe your favorite actress or singer looks so good; because they’re able to afford a lifestyle of eating well, while also being healthy.
In closing, I want you to think about your lifestyle and diet, and determine if it’s helping you or hurting you. If it’s helping, please continue what your doing. But if it’s hurting you and you want to live a full, long, free, blessed life; you need to change somethings, so you won’t have to check out early. I don’t know what it is about getting older. But you start to see your life so much clearer when you do.
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Be Blessed, and Live In The Moment…..

empowering · motivational

24hrs

What’s up my Beautiful People?!!!

I really wanted to motivate you this morning. We’re more than halfway through the week!….

Isn’t that a beautiful thing?

Your weekend is almost here.

As I’m sure you may know by now, my whole purpose for this site is to mainly provide a place you could get some morning inspiration and other times, get to know me.

Today is no different. Below is a video I hope will inspire you to make that change and do that thing you want to do for the rest of your life. Most people don’t realize changing your life is as simple as changing your habits. You may not feel like 20 or even 30 minutes a day is enough time to start something that will financially propel you in to freedom; but anytime spent is time well worth the effort.

I’m sure will inspire you to make that change. Don’t worry. It’s a very short video. Just that little push you may need for the day, to get you going.

Enjoy!!!!!

I do not own right to this video.

empowering · Experiences · motivational · Venting

LIFE

Have you ever experienced a point in life where you felt stuck?

I’ve been feeling like this ever since February 20th, 2019 (the day I lost my job of 15yrs). Truthfully, it’s been longer than that. I thought it was going to be something easy to get over, but it hasn’t been. I have a job now, I’m grateful for it. The only problem is I know I could have been doing so much better if I would have followed my own drum instead of the beat of someone else’s.

When I think about it, I realize most of the choices I made in life have been what other people wanted for me. There aren’t that many things that I’ve decided on in my own. I guess I’m scared of being the one to blame when things don’t go well. I’ve realized in life you’re always going to have choices. I should be looking at it as a good thing, because it means life always has an opportunity to change for the better.

You see, so many times we go through things and concentrate on the negativity of the change or the lose, instead of focusing on how the change is going to benefit us or the people around us. It doesn’t have to be a bad thing. Slowly but surely I’ve observed how this change was good for me. For one, I’m way more focused on what I want. I’ve been able to post more regularly, I’ve published a book, spoken at an open mic night, soon will be starting a podcast, started a YouTube channel, and in a couple weeks I’ll be going back to college. I have to say God blessed me when he removed me from that place. At the time I didn’t see it. But little by little I can see his plan unfolding and I’m so grateful for this opportunity to live life again.

I know you all my not understand the emotion behind my words and feelings. But just to let you know where I’m coming from; I use to be someone who had no direction! I had a dog of a boyfriend from 19 to 28 he treated me like I was less than dirt on the bottom of a shoe. He constantly lied, cheated, stole from me, put me down in always imaginable, and disappeared sometimes for months at a time. Then to couple that with a step-father who insulted me, demeaned me any chance he got, and cheated on my mother constantly. That isn’t even the half of it. To be honest I could write a whole novel on my negative interactions with men including my sperm donor. I just don’t feel the need to, not yet anyway.

I have to say I’m grateful, even though sometimes I can’t tell if things are improving. One thing I know; they’re not staying the same.

So if you’re like me and life has brought you 180 you need to continue on that path and know most change is for your good. Even if it seems a little or a lot uncomfortable. For the things we really want in life we are always going to have to experience some discomfort in order to appreciate it when something good comes along.

 

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empowering · Informative · motivational · Thoughts

Let Your Haters Be Your Motivators

32730414-stuck-in-a-rut-words-on-a-sign-in-a-hole-or-pit-to-illustrate-complacency-and-comfort-zone-and-a-neeHave you ever been stuck in a rut, and didn’t know how you were going to get out? That was me before I started writing this blog. Day after day I would go to work and hate it. Don’t get me wrong I still hate it. But finding something I like to do, that also connects  with others makes it all more bearable. Just to give you some knowledge as to what I do, that’s if you’ve never read any of my blog posts before. I work in retail, have been for over 13 years. Believe me, it wasn’t my first job choice but it gave me a check. That being said, I know that is the only reason I stayed, that and fear to try something different. But as the years passed I realized it wasn’t what I wanted to do for the rest of my life, so I made some moves. I started working another job while still having the first. The second job wasn’t as mentally draining as the first, but it was very draining physically. I can remember days I fell asleep on the road rushing from one job, just to get ready to go to the next. I’m sure I’m not saying anything new, because half of us has, had or are either looking for our second job, right now.

hamsterThat’s the one thing you shouldn’t do, get a second job. If anything, start something you can call your own. At least you know if you make a profit most if not all that money is going to you. I’m sure your probably like, “I don’t have money to start a business!” Truth is, some of the best business owners didn’t start out with that much money either, but they still persisted and made something out of nothing. It feels like that’s what a lot of us do not understand, as long as you have a vision and passion for making that vision a reality, there will always be someone interested in what you have to say, no matter the amount of haters. Just know, you’re definitely going to have people down playing or talking negatively about your efforts to make something out of yourself.  All because they’re afraid to go after what they want, like they say, ‘Misery loves company’.  That’s what you have to remember when you start talking to people about your dreams or plans to excel in life. Don’t let negative people deter you from what you know was put in you to do.

cage Prime example, This past Sunday I reached work took my first customer and the conversation with him led to my current ventures of promoting this blog. He said, “Don’t you think it’s a little too late?” At first it got under my skin and pissed me off, but instead of getting mad I replied with, “It’s never too late.” The way I viewed his response started to affect me, but I didn’t let it get that far. Maybe it was the coffee that had me in such a positive mood or I know that I’m gonna be alright because I’m finally doing what I was meant to do. Either way I know he responded that way because most of us are taught that once you’re in a job for a long time, you should work there up until retirement and collect a check. I’m sorry, that isn’t the way my mind works. The way I see it, you can change your mind, job, interest, anything, as long as you still have breath in your body. Age has nothing to do with that, and never let anyone tell you different. Most times people talk just to hear themselves talk, and more than half of the time they’re not saying anything of value. So I say to you, if you have a dream to do something that you’ve always wanted to do but haven’t, either because of fear or circumstance, just do it. You’re not getting any younger and you’re going to feel nothing but regret if you don’t. So live your best life  and stop allowing others to dumb you down.

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Thoughts

Something Has Got To Change

As I’m looking at CNN’s webpage I see there’ve been 22 school shootings this year. I’m sure there’s probably more now. Why do you think that is?

List of school shootings that have happened from January-February of this year

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I think it has everything to do with the way people treat one another on a day to day bases. We treat people like we can throw them away and start over again. There are so many reasons people treat other people like crap.

A Couple Examples:

1.) They feel like crap so they treat others like it.

2.) No home training. When I say that I mean parents that let their children do whatever they want without any real consequences.

3.) Growing up playing these video games that have nudity, theft, and violence in them. Placing no value on real life.

I’m sure there are many other reasons. But I think these lead to the core of the problems we have with the gun violence. If you think about it, most kids hurt other kids because they feel unwanted, unloved, or unhappy. Back when I was growing up kids bullied you, that was a cake walk compared to now. There were a few school shootings but nothing like there is now. It almost seems like they’re trying to one up each other to get their face on the news. That’s one reason they shouldn’t put their faces on the news, because they get a high from the attention. It’s almost like they’ve won a prize or something. It’s sick, but that’s how some of these shooters think.

I’m sure the children who did these school shootings are broken in some way. They need to sit on someone’s couch and work out their problems. I’m almost positive if you were to do back round on these kids doing the shooting, you would find that most of them are the weird, anti-social ones of their schools’. For all we know life could really be hard for them. Don’t misunderstand me. In no way am I giving these killers a pass. I’m only saying there’s probably a key to unlocking the way their mind operates, and by trying to understand what they need may help lower the amount of innocent students being killed.

On another note, it’s a shame these children go to school and they can’t feel safe anymore, because truth be told the next one (God forbid) could be at their school. Kids didn’t have to worry about things like this growing up, years ago. All they had to focus on was getting good grades and having fun with their friends. These days, they have to pray they make it home alive. What kind of a world are we raising these children to be in?

Resolutions

I think if we made it a little harder to get a gun licenses, there would be less children shooting up schools. They wouldn’t be able to get their father or mother’s hand gun, because their parent’s wouldn’t have one to get. The reason that would be, is do to them having a school age child in the home. If you ask me gun control should have been a whole lot stricter a long time ago. I hate to say it but I have to, the only time someone seems to get any real sentencing is when the person committing the crime is of the minority.

If they judged everyone equally most of the crimes we have going on now would slow down a lot. There are white men out here now who know if they kill or rape someone of a different ethnicity all they’ll get is a slap on the wrist. By making it okay for some and not others, you’re creating an unequal playing field. One that is forever going to be skewed, and will continue to get worse and worse because there aren’t real sentences given to those who are taking lives so carelessly.

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These are a few of the victims of the school shootings from 2018

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