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Agoraphobia-Extreme or irrational fear of entering open or crowded places.

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So much has changed!!! I have so much love around me and so many people to talk too. Something I didn’t have before. Well let me rephrase that, I am able to receive the love this go around. Before I felt it was too much and needed to get away. It’s not that I didn’t want the love; Really, who doesn’t want love? I just wanted that love from a man so bad that I hadn’t realized I would except anything to be with one. That is besides the point though.

Agoraphobia | Biological disorders | Psychiatry Journal

What I had in mind today are introverts; something I happen to be. The introvert thing is okay though. I’m okay with spending time alone. My main problem is receiving and being comfortable around other people. I hadn’t even thought about this for the past few months because I haven’t had to be around anyone I haven’t wanted to be around. So naturally the fear or shall I say the anxiety that comes with being around others is starting to rise.

That’s because moving back home has been like having an open nerve ending. I say that because my Mother is a very sociable person and I am not. For me being around more than 2 or 3 people is a recipe for anxiety and discomfort. I’ve always been this way. I do better in a one on one setting. I’ve tried to be that person that goes to clubs, parties and things like that; I’m just not set up that way. My anxiety is way to bad for me to be around a lot of people for an extended amount of time.

That’s why I can understand how we have people who never leave their house. Yes some of these people live in the most horrendous living conditions, but their comfortable. I’m sure some people never put in thought when it comes to seeing people like this and thinking about their back story and why they are the way they are. Well for someone like me who could have easily been a person like that; let me say that it is a struggle to get up and be around groups of people for an extended period of time. That is do largely to my tendency to over think and also because I’m extremely empathic.

So I guess what I’m is; If you have someone around you that is extremely sensitive and recluse, try to encourage them, rather than making them feel weird because they are extremely sensitive or anxiety ridden. Just to make it clear as to how it feels going around large groups of people; It’s like being in the ocean, you see the shark coming for you. You try to get away but you’re stuck in a state of shock. It’s like your mind is working overtime but your body just won’t move.

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This will let them know they’re not alone.

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Hey good people!!!

I hope every day feels like a blessing and all of your dreams are coming true or will eventually.


As I’ve stated many time before, I have started somewhat of a soap company. Well that is what you can consider it for the time being, because soap is the only thing I sale at the current time.

Getting this business of the ground won’t be easy, but I’m completely up for the challenge. I have to say I believe in my brand because all the products I use are beneficial to the skin and the health of the over all body. Give it a try.

This soap is not the typical soap you get from a grocery store. No, not at all. The soaps I make are capable of helping you physically or mentally. It all depends on which soaps you choose to purchase.

Soaps in my Etsy Story

Pictured above are Army Fatigue, Spearwood, and Ancient Egyptian a.k.a Ancient Rain b.k.a Egyptian Rain.

Benefits of Army Fatigue– Was mad with Coconut oil Olive oil, Eucalyptus essential oil, and many other oils that benefit the skin and the health of the body.
If you’re interested to find out the exact ingredients check them out at
Eucalyptus – Heals wounds, Removes mental exhaustion, treats fever, removes intestinal germs, relieves inflammation, treats joint pain & soothes tired and sore muscles.

Each soap carries very different but specific healing or soothing qualities. If you are interest or know someone who is please make sure to share this post with anyone who may be interested. is the link if you’re interested. At this time, FREE Shipping for anything $35 or more.

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Hey Good People!!!


I know it’s been a while since I’ve last made a post. Reason for that is I am trying to get a brand and company off of the ground. I’m not sure if you remember a couple of posts ago. I was talking about getting into skin care. Well I kind of have. Everything isn’t really set into motion yet. Well… on my part it kind of is.

It took me forever to find something that was worth my time and I think that I have found something other than writing that I enjoy doing; and that thing is making soap!!! I never thought that I would enjoy it so much, but I really do! So because I enjoy making it so much I’ve started to sell it!! The only thing now is getting buyers. I know that this is going to be the hardest task, because people don’t trust just anyone or thing being sold over the internet. It’s a precaution and good thing for them, but it’s terrible for me. Because I back my product 100%!!!

Every oil that goes into each bar of soap is meant to only increase the health of your skin. I use things like organic virgin coconut oil, virgin olive oil, canola oil, Shea Butter and a list of other things that have been proven to be good for the skin and your over all health. I also am a big consumer of essential oils. Some of the soaps are scented by fragrances, but many are by essential oils. Because I don’t know about you, but I want to be enveloped in something I know is going to benefit me in the long run.  

Through out this post are pictures of different soaps I have created over the months. Some are in my Etsy shop ( and others are soaps that are soon to be displayed. If you are interested, please make sure to click the link and you’ll be taken to my shop.

Also if you want to leave a comment or just want to communicate somewhere other than on my blog I also have other social medias

They are:

Facebook: HeavenlyScentsbyShadrieka or L.O.W.W which is also on Facebook. Which stands for Love of the Written Word.

Instagram: heavenly_cents

Also it would be extremely appreciated if you would pass the word along. You will not regret it.  

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5 Daily Relaxation Habits

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There are so many ways to relax. So many of us are running from place to place so much, that we forget to take time out for ourselves.


We’re either on our phones, computers, watching television, working, or a countless amount of other things. We are so use to being on the go, that when many of us sit still for even a minute, we’re hit with anxiety of the next thing we need to get done. That is no way to live.

When you start to think of anxiety on a larger scale you start to realize, many of us suffer from anxiety because we don’t get adequate amounts of rest. Also many of us don’t exercise, get large amounts of sunlight, and don’t have a diet high in live foods.

Today I want to give you, just five simple things you could do to lower anxiety and help you learn to be more in the moment; rather than thinking of the next thing on your to do list.

 F.Y.I- I also do these things.

Relaxation Habits

Meditate- It’s something I’ve done in the past and I’m working on now. My only problem is, I always seem to fall asleep…. But aside from that, I love meditation; it helps you learn to be more in the moment. Sometimes you need that stillness because it teaches you to slow down and really appreciate life, people, connections, and all the things life has to offer.

Diffusers & Essential Oils- There’s nothing like going to your favorite room in the house, turning on your nature sounds and having your diffuser pump out the scent of your favorite essential oil! A lot of people don’t know this, but this is exactly what I do when I go to bed. Then when I wake up in the morning, I feel completely refreshed and relaxed.

Sunbathe- Sunbathing after working in a building all week, is relaxation in itself. There’s nothing like going out in the sun when you’ve been deprived of it. Besides it being beneficial to your health, it also just feels sooo good!

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Take a walk through Nature- On rough days, I like to go and either take a walk or sit in nature. All those worries you had before getting there, just seem to fall away.

If you do decide to do this, make sure to be in the moment. Appreciate all the sounds, visuals, feelings, and smells it has to offer. Once you learn to do that, those worries and that anxiety are just gonna melt away.

Read A Good Book!- Many people don’t realize the power a well written, good book has. Reading can be an escape from all the stress, pain, anxiety, and discomfort you experience in your day to day life. I can say for myself, there have been some books that have helped me through some really hard times.

You want to make sure that the type of book you’re reading is nothing like your life. That’s why I stick to Erotica, Fantasy, and Science Fiction. I tend to go more for erotica. You wouldn’t believe how much reading something so engrossed in sex, could make you feel so relaxed.

Below are links to some of the things I use, when I’m feeling a little stressed out and need to relax.



Bath Bombs– Sometimes that’s all you need; A really great smelling bath bomb, that’ll relax you. Along with candles and dim lighting. Now that’s a vibe! 

The great thing about the one’s shown above, they’re organic; that’s what I loved about them. That means, you won’t have to worry about harsh chemicals leeching into you skin while you’re trying to relax.



If you love natural scents and oils, you’ll love this. I have them both; since having them, I don’t see how I’ve been able to live without them.
All you have to do is add water, your favorite essential oil or oils , and relaxation is yours.

These two are just the thing you need to mellow out, on days when your boss gets on your nerves or you have a very important event coming up; and anxiety is kicking your butt. The other added benefit of this diffuser is it’s 7 LED colors. You could use it for a night light or what I like to use it for; setting the mood for some grown-up activity (if you know what I mean). You also have total control over which of the seven colors you want to show, and if you want it bright or dim.



You know I couldn’t end this blog, without dropping a book or two. These two books are FIRE! If you want to read something that is full of emotion and sex; these are the ones for you.

There are so many more that I could’ve added. But I’m sure I’ll eventual add my long list of bomb books.



Loyalty: Love, Lies, and Betrayal is a little different from the books above; mainly because I wrote it. Also for the mere fact there is a male lead; and he’s bisexual.

I had so much fun writing this book, that I’m sure you’ll have just as much fun reading it. Fair warning; the revision that’s coming out in a couple of days, is going to be way better then the original. If you’d like to wait till then to get your copy, make sure to mark July 1st on your calendar.



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