I’m sitting here at work and decided, it’s been way to long since I’ve done a blog.
As always, I hope everyone one is in good spirits and life is treating you kind.
I guess you could say my theme for today is; monetization. Being truthful, this is something that constantly goes through my head. I guess you could say I think of it so much because I’m trying to find a way to leave the monotony of working a 9 to 5.
There are so many things I could monetize. My only problem is having a set plan that I can consistently implement. Currently I’m hoping to monetize my YouTube, Soap, Books, Podcasts and this blog.
I have been doing most of these things for years and still have not developed income from most of them. I’ve been told my lack of making it is do to lack of focus and consistently sticking with something. I see how that conclusion could be made. It’s the truth. I really have an extremely hard time sticking with one thing. I’ve been trying for a long time to find a way to fix that. I’ve gotten a little better with it, but at times still struggle.
If you have friends or family like me; you know the ones who always have the next best idea. Take it easy on them, they’re just trying to find their way. Most likely a 9 to 5 for them is like dying a little everyday. All they’re really in search of is that freedom that comes with being an entrepreneur. I know because that’s exactly why I do what I do.
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Over the past week things have been hittin differently. I’m not sure if it was the car accident or my baby of 15 years passing or my car clunking out on me, that has me thinking of things a little different. Don’t get me wrong, I’ve always had a mindset of working for myself. But this is the first time I’m choosing to act on it.
For years I’ve tried things, hoping that it would be my ticket out of Monotony Ville. To no avail I’m still where I started from; to be honest even lower. Reason being, I’ve allowed life to happen to me and not for me.
What that means is, I haven’t taken planned disciplined action towards goals I wanted and still want to accomplish. That was my first major mistake. In doing that I did myself a diservice.
I knew what it would take for me to make it. I just didn’t exercise what I knew. This was mainly because I wanted to find a faster way to make it. As a result of trying and failing to find a quicker way to make money, I lost way more then I’ve gained.
The plan is to now apply what I’ve learned and turn my negatives ( inconsistencies) to the life I’ve been dreaming of. The true goal is to keep one target in mind and hit it. I can’t tell you how many quote unquote “great ideas” I’ve had. But because of inconsistency I never saw them through. Because I was looking for the financial reward before putting in the work needed to receive it.
If you’re like me-looking for a quick way to obtain financial freedom. Please slow down. Learn how to focus on one goal at a time. I find that is a better way to set and achieve your goals.
I’ve been thinking about this week for a long time. This week is Spring Break for Palm Beach County. And since I work with a school, it is also spring break for me! Meaning that I do not have to report to work for a full week! That alone is cause to celebrate. But what put the icing on the cake was my family coming down.
This was such a big thing because there is a part of our family that I haven’t seen in years (that’s partly my fault). I have to say though that I had a great time spending time with my cousins and just getting that complete feeling again. I really hadn’t noticed how much it affected me not to have them here.
I understand that not having them here is something I’m gonna have to get over. I will in do time. But the real thing I had to take in to account is my lack of change. I realized over the years there has been much that has changed with them, but I’ve stayed the same. Not in away saying that is a bad thing because it isn’t. It just makes me take a closer look at myself and helps me to realize; time waits for NO man. Meaning, it’s time for me to put fear to the side and start living freely and with out the worry of judgement.
Have you ever just had those close family members that you admire because they’re able to go through many situations without fear or they have fear but they find a way to make that fear none existent? Those are the qualities I’m working to build within myself. Honestly it was just inspiring to watch how fearless my family is. If they want something they go for it.
The other thing is, they all are fighters. I’m not speaking in the physically form per say, but they’ll fight if they had too. I’m really speaking of spiritually. They will go toe to toe for their family. That’s why I love my people. But there is still work we need to do. As I’m sure everyone’s family has something they need to work on.
Inconclusion, I can’t wait until we get together again.
Forgive me. I know that was a little cheesy. But I work in a school. What do you expect?
Well something that crosses my mind often is freedom. Freedom to be who you are, do what you want to do, go where you want to go.
I’m sure this is a major concern of mine, because everything I do I have to answer to someone. To be honest, I’m tired of it!
There have been many days I just want to go walk away from everything that isn’t making me happy.
Recently, I spoke to my therapist and she asked; “Why are you so concerned with making lots of money?” I told her; “The way I see it, money equates to freedom.”
For a long time I knew I wanted to be wealthy, but I was never clear on the Why. Now I understand why. This may not always be the answer others give. But freedom is definitely my why.
If you find yourself struggling with bouts of depression and they’re because of your current position, try finding and focusing on that thing that puts a spring in your step. For me that is financial freedom. That may not be what makes you happy and that is okay. We are all different.
At the current moment there are so many things going through my mind. To be honest I do this to myself. Things could be so much easier if I just trusted myself.
Over the years there have been so many things I wanted to try; but didn’t go all the way with because of fear. Truth be told if fear wasn’t a major factor for me, I would’ve been some where in the world living it up. I truly believe that.
Instead I’m here working a job that isn’t my passion and wracking my brain trying to figure out a way to get out of the current situation I’m in.
See I’ve always had ideas. Some I acted on, but never gave my all too. The reason that is, is do to not really believing in myself. I understand that’s my downfall.
I’m in this situation because I’ve trusted other people’s advice more than I’ve trusted my own. This is another reason I feel lost. But I’m slowly making my way back.
I understand it’s going to take loads of work for me to get in the headspace I need to be in, in order to succeed at life. And I’m okay with that.
We all go through it at some point in our life. But what really matters is what you do to get out of it.
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Why is it when you style is comfort people believe you have no money for clothes. It seems if you dress comfortably and for the job, you are looked down upon because you choose not to wear your Sunday’s best to work?
Especially with what I do. I work with Pre-k. As most of us know they can be a bit messy. Not to mention having to changing poopy diapers or clothes because the baby had an accident. In my mind there’s just NO reason to wear nice clothes at this point.
If you disagree please leave a comment. Also what should I tell the people who believe I need a hand out because of the way I dress?
Just to give you a little insight: I usually wear loose fitting jeans or pants, work shirts, or a loose fitting shirt. I wear loose fitting clothes so I can move around with the babies. It would be uncomfortable if I had to wear a fitted shirt and paints and do as much movement as I’m required to do.
Also if you can relate I would love to hear some of your stories. So please drop them in the comment section.
If you are one of the lucky ones like myself and are allowed frequent paid breaks from your job; I hope you’re enjoying this free time with every fiber of your being.
As for me, I want to enjoy myself. I just don’t know how.
Question: What childhood behavior or fear followed you to adulthood?
I’m not so sure I’ve written about this in depth, but I know I’ve written about it before.
Some may already know I have many fears. But the one I’ve developed from childhood is fear of authority figures ( especially men).
All though I’m grown and I have no one around me wanting to hurt me; it’s still a fear that lives in the back of my mind.
During this break all kinds of things have been going through my mind. Some good, some not so good. One thing’s for sure, I’m becoming more unmotivated as the days pass.
I’m sure this is happening because I’m back home. Don’t get me wrong I love being back home. I just hate the comfortability it gives me being here. It makes it hard to want to accomplish anything because I am provided the things I had to work so hard for, while I wasn’t here. I know that motivation should still be there. I have to be honest; it’s dwindling.
I know she loves me and wants me to stay a baby forever. But this struggle of being an adult with unresolved issues and childhood traumas and fears, are the things I hide behind when it comes to trying something new and exciting.
The Turn Around
After spending so many years living in my past I’m going to approach this coming year differently. Instead of holding on to past hurts and traumas I’m going to find new and creative ways to let them go.
A long time ago I realized I remain stagnant because I constantly listen to my own opinions, also the person I hang around the most is myself. How am I really suppose to change if I won’t allow new experiences to happen because I’m afraid of the possible outcome?
This is gonna be a real struggle, but it’s definitely something that needs to happen. I can’t have my inner world be richer and more vivid than my actual reality. I’m not going for it. I need and will only tolerate the type of life I would accept in my wildest dreams.
This is something I’ve been feeling for a long while, but have only had the courage to say up until recently.
I bring up courage because it takes courage to change and admit to yourself you live in the hurt because that’s what you know. Not only that it’s what you’ve become accustom and started to crave. This happens when hurt is what you’ve experienced the most. Over time you begin to crave it because it’s all you know.
Please keep in mind, hurt may have been what you’ve experienced and know better than happiness; but it doesn’t have to be. You can take that power back. Make life into what you believe it should be for you, at any point.
Never forget: How you choose to live is a mindset that can be changed at anytime. It’s like have a chest of treasure with a thousand keys. You know one fits, but you have to try them all till you find the one that fits.
That’s pretty much how life works. You have to go through life trying different (keys) until you find the one that unlocks the key to your treasure (happiness).
I hope you found something you can take away from this post.
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