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How it’s gonna be…..

Good Morning!

 

I feel a little bit better today. Not much has changed but the way I feel. I don’t feel as irritated and angry. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me. I’ve realized it’s good to hold your true emotions back sometime.

Well any, there is so much to be grateful for. Sometimes the ways of the world get in the way. You don’t realize how blessed you are because you have something in your life blocking you form that realization. That was me yesterday. I just felt inconvenienced and wanted to shut myself off from the world. I have to admit though, that is me on an everyday basis. Not because I don’t like people, mainly because I want to protect my energy.

People that I’ve grown up with and even my mother thinks I’m a little too sensitive because I take on other people’s problems as my own. I’m sorry! I don’t know how else to be. I’ve always internalized all problems, even if they weren’t mine. I understand that is something I need to work on. That is one of the main reasons I can’t be around certain people; because they will drain me of my energy. Whether you realize it or not it takes a lot of energy to really care about the next person’s problems.

At times I felt that I was an emotional dumping ground. That’s why I’m trying to prepare myself for when I move in with my mom. I know that I’m not going to be able to be home too often because she likes to invite people over; then wants me to come out and greet those people. She just doesn’t understand how uncomfortable that is for me.

Some times I get into moods where I don’t want to talk to anyone. When I’m around her, I have to talk to the people around her; if I don’t, I feel regretful of not saying anything to the other person, because I’m stuck thinking about the way I made them feel because I didn’t acknowledge them.

To be honest it’s a viscous cycle. That’s one of the main reasons I’m a person that like to stay to myself. The only time you’ll see me around other people is when I have to be or when it’s people I know really well and I consider them my friend. Not that I don’t have times when I can talk to complete strangers, because I can also do that; and have lovely conversations with them. I just believe over time I’ve allowed my shyness to dictate the way I live my life.

I have tried working on that, and I’m gonna to continue to work on that. The bad thing about being shy is never feeling free enough to do what you feel, and it’s not good in business either. That is another reason I need to work on getting passed this stage.

Do you know anyone who has this problem? And if that person is you, how are you helping yourself through this process?

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Quest To Get Fit

Happy Holidays!!!!!

I lost the 3 to 4 lbs. I gained last week, Thank God!!! That’s one less thing I have to worry about. But the gaining of the weight really seems to happen to women more commonly; probably because we are the ones that are suppose to carry the children. So our bodies seem to always be ready and willing to carry some extra unwanted weight.

Week 2 and I’m happy I decided to document this weight loss. By keeping track of it, it helps me to stay on track. I know it’s not going to be easy to continue to lose, but I’m going to keep on trying. Like I stated in one of my last posts It Begins!!! I know we all go through times in our lives when we have wanted to lose or gain weight and we also have  times when wanting to make that happen becomes more than a thought and you realize you’re finally ready to do something about it. That time is now for me.

Getting older and realizing how the body changes for the worst when not properly cared for, makes you come to know that something has to be done if you want to have better days than you previously had, I definitely do. So this is something that has become mandatory, not just for me but for the ones I love. I’m hoping one day I can take what I’m learning about health and help others in my family and some of those that are close to me with they’re eating and activity habits.

I know better than most what happens that makes you lethargic and immobile. When you’re a child that wasn’t so much the case because you use to be able to go and play with friends for hours until the street lights came on. Now days, children don’t know anything about going outside and making up games and playing with friends, because they have or are use to playing their electronical games. The activity levels are even higher when you have siblings, because you always have someone to aggravate or get aggravated by (lol) . The point is, when we grow up all that activity stops because life starts to happen; this can be in the form of children, financial hardship, stress, you name it, it happens. That’s why I think if we focused a little less on worldly things and more on ourselves and the people around us,  life would be a lot more fulfilling. You would feel there is more of a purpose to life than working to pay bills and killing yourself to make as much money as you can, while you can.

I’m just now, starting to really understand how much importance this world has placed on money and appearances. The funny thing is, the media uses the people that are out of shape and may not look the best, to make those who do look the way we dream of looking; to make us feel like we could always be better. If you want to be better, there’s nothing wrong with that; just make sure it was your decision and not something you decided to do because of the media. Love you, regardless of what others think or feel about you. FYI, most times they don’t know you, and the other half of the time, if they do, their thoughts of you are never as bad as you think they are. But if they are, chances are that person is a hater and you have something going for you that they wish they had.

Remember, always look outside of yourself, and spread love and positivity where ever you go. I love you all and thanks for reading!!!.jpg