Short stories

Hi Possibilities! I’m here for it!

Good Morning Everyone!

I’m feeling pretty good today. There are so many things that are right with the world as there are so many things that are wrong with it. It all depends on your perception of the things around you. It’s so easy to see the negative when the positive is staring you straight in the face. I really never understood why that is. For that positive thing to stand out it has to be more positive than the negative is negative; if you understand where I’m coming from.

But other than positives and negatives, today is going to be the last day I’m going to be at my current residence. I have until the end of the month to move but I figured I would give the last week of peace to my roommate. For you who don’t know we started off in a relationship then the act he had been putting on the first couple of years became too much for him and that’s when he started showing his true colors. For a long time I thought I was over reacting when I had feelings of isolation and being smothered by his controlling ways. Then I got conformation from those around me that I was not crazy for thinking and feeling the way I did. They say what I so desperately did not want to admit; that he was controlling and not the right fit for me…..

I was going to say, ” I wish they would have said something sooner” but I understand why they did not; because they knew I wasn’t ready to hear it and as a result of that I would have possibly cut them out of my life. Then that act would have had me deeper entangled into his web of misery and control.

For the longest time I thought he was so controlling and judgmental because he wanted the best for me and because of the love he had toward me. Later I realized it was for his own peace of mind. See; he had been cheated on serval times and as a result he became paranoid and believed I would do the same. So going in I didn’t realize his foundation was tainted by all those past experiences he had with other women. See it didn’t matter how transparent I was through out, because in the end he accused me of cheating anyway.

So inconclusion I just want to say to the women and men in relationships you have to constantly prove your loyalty; you might as well quit while you’re ahead. I may be wrong but once a person comes into any kind of relationship not trusting the other person, people or thing they’ll never learn to let down their guard and let you in. It’s going to take a hard lesson to open their eyes. So don’t waste your time or energy repeatedly proving yourself to that person when you’ve done nothing wrong to begin with.

I really hope you’ve enjoyed this blog. As always I enjoy creating them for you. Please do me the favor of sharing this blog in hopes of helping it to grow. 

On Another note: Come try a soap that caters to you and your skins needs! Try LuLu’s Lavish Lathers a soap that not only cleans but provides your skin with the hydration and moisture it needs to remain or for some of you become smooth and silky to the touch.

As Always

 

Short stories

How it’s gonna be…..

Good Morning!

 

I feel a little bit better today. Not much has changed but the way I feel. I don’t feel as irritated and angry. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me. I’ve realized it’s good to hold your true emotions back sometime.

Well any, there is so much to be grateful for. Sometimes the ways of the world get in the way. You don’t realize how blessed you are because you have something in your life blocking you form that realization. That was me yesterday. I just felt inconvenienced and wanted to shut myself off from the world. I have to admit though, that is me on an everyday basis. Not because I don’t like people, mainly because I want to protect my energy.

People that I’ve grown up with and even my mother thinks I’m a little too sensitive because I take on other people’s problems as my own. I’m sorry! I don’t know how else to be. I’ve always internalized all problems, even if they weren’t mine. I understand that is something I need to work on. That is one of the main reasons I can’t be around certain people; because they will drain me of my energy. Whether you realize it or not it takes a lot of energy to really care about the next person’s problems.

At times I felt that I was an emotional dumping ground. That’s why I’m trying to prepare myself for when I move in with my mom. I know that I’m not going to be able to be home too often because she likes to invite people over; then wants me to come out and greet those people. She just doesn’t understand how uncomfortable that is for me.

Some times I get into moods where I don’t want to talk to anyone. When I’m around her, I have to talk to the people around her; if I don’t, I feel regretful of not saying anything to the other person, because I’m stuck thinking about the way I made them feel because I didn’t acknowledge them.

To be honest it’s a viscous cycle. That’s one of the main reasons I’m a person that like to stay to myself. The only time you’ll see me around other people is when I have to be or when it’s people I know really well and I consider them my friend. Not that I don’t have times when I can talk to complete strangers, because I can also do that; and have lovely conversations with them. I just believe over time I’ve allowed my shyness to dictate the way I live my life.

I have tried working on that, and I’m gonna to continue to work on that. The bad thing about being shy is never feeling free enough to do what you feel, and it’s not good in business either. That is another reason I need to work on getting passed this stage.

Do you know anyone who has this problem? And if that person is you, how are you helping yourself through this process?

Also if you’ve enjoyed this post or can relate. Please make sure to LIKE, SHARE, and COMMENT.

Try a bar of LuLu’s Lavish Lathers. Your skin will thank you for it!

As Always

Photos Provided By: washingtonparent.com,

Experiences · Short stories

Going through…..

Happy Saturday!!!!

What’s good with everyone? Hope you had a great week!!!

There’re so many things going through my head at this moment. But the one that sticks out the most is moving and the whole situation with that. I know if I was to tell you what I had to go through (emotionally) throughout this past year you would probably tell me to run. I would say you’re probably right. I’m not saying I want to stay. Well let me rephrase that, I would love to stay; if it meant I didn’t have to live with “Him”.

I don’t know what it is, but the more the days pass the more dislike and disgust I gain towards him. Let me stop lying, I know why I don’t like his ass. You want a list? Here it goes. He’s controlling, complacent, insecure, deceitful, manipulative, secretive, unprogressive. Believe me the list could go on, but I’m gonna stop it right there.

I’m sure the question you’re probably asking is, “If he was all those things through out the years, why did you continue to be with him?” I would have to say, I was being lazy and also a little afraid. Afraid of ‘What’, you may want to know. Afraid of the unknown. I was happy knowing I had the control of who showed up at my house. See, not many people knew where I lived and I loved that. If I’m being honest, I enjoyed it because there weren’t unannounced pop-ups or people needing me all the time. I had more freedom because I didn’t have to worry about looking into they’re faces’ when I said “NO”. Fine Print: 9/6/16: Are You A People Pleaser? (With images ...

If you don’t know, I’m the type of person who will do all I can to help the next person out without any concern or thought for myself. I’ve done this so much over the years. Believe me, it’s not that I want to be like this, this is just the way I am. I’ve been trying to learn how to put myself first. But I’m afraid once I move back home, I’ll be putting my needs on the back burner once again.

These days I know I can’t do that. But I feel if a person makes me feel bad enough, I’m gonna go right back to my old ways. Don’t get me wrong, I love doing things for the special people in my life; I just don’t want to feel obligated too. Let me be far, it’s not them it’s me. Every time I’ve ever said “No” in the past, I always felt like, they would through me away. I know that’s an extreme thought, but I can’t help but think like that. I think the reason I feel like this is because I’m a big “People Pleaser” and with that comes a lot of mental and sometimes emotional turmoil.

Many times when you’re this type of person you fight with yourself, because you know you don’t want to do the thing they’re asking. A lot of times you do it anyway, because with this disorder you are always looking for acceptance and validation; cause deep down you don’t believe that you’re as great a person as everyone keeps telling you, you are.

The other thing about being a ‘People Pleaser’ is, many times the ones who’re doing the asking don’t realize how much of a heavy burden they’ve put on your shoulders by asking you to do something. It’s not their job to know, because in actuality the problem lies with you. People Pleasing is a hard thing to shack. I mean you’re agreeable even when you wanna cuss a b**** out! It’s too much sometime, but hey that’s the way the cookie crumbles.

Question of the Day: If you are a People Pleaser, how do you cope with it? Or If you once were a People Pleaser, how did you change that and learn to put you first?

PLEASE MAKE SURE TO SHARE, SHARE SHARE!!!!

If you want a book that’s going to keep you entertained from start to finish, Checkout Loyalty, Love, Lies & Betrayal By: Shadrieka Franks on Amazon.

Enjoyed the blog?… Show your support by tipping the writer.

CashApp: ShadsShortStories

As Always

Photo Provided By: thecooperreview.com/

health · motivational · Thoughts

Use it or Lose it

7939868034068ef46c2264bf13896062When I started this blog, I thought it was going to be geared towards my writing. But now, I know the purpose of this blog. I’m still going to talk about things I feel deeply about, but for the most part, it’s going to be fitness inspired. Reason being, I’m starting a new chapter in my life. One I feel I should have started a long time ago; fitness. I’ve always wanted to be fit but never had the drive.

Through the help and motivation of having a partner, I’ve realized that I’ve always been intrigued by how working out and food helps the body transform into something completely different from what once was. Working out offers you the chance to not just look good, but to transform and become something way more than you ever were. Especially for someone that has always been very shy, quiet, and a little afraid to act outside of what is deemed acceptable to those around them. I’m not saying this is going to be the answer to everyone’s insecurities. I’m only saying it could be a start to something beautiful. I’m starting to see the changes that it’s starting to have on my life. I know I’ve only been at it consistently for about 2 months, but I have energy I never had before!!! There were days before I started working out that I would be home and not do anything but sleep, because I had no energy to do anything else; that was because I did nothing else to get the blood flowing.

I understand we all have busy lives’ and little to no time to think about anything outside of getting this money and making sure the people in our life are being taking care of. “But, if you don’t take care of you, who else will?” The next time you think about skipping out on a workout, I want you to think about what could happen if you left this world, all  because you didn’t take the time to put you first. If you have children or a parent that depends on you or lets say you’re the owner of a non-profit organization and without you the people you helped wouldn’t continue to better themselves because you or your company was no longer around, you died unexpectedly, because of your health. Would you really want all of that good you’ve done to just vanish? If you’re a feeler like me, I’m sure the answer is “No”. If so, start doing something about it, if you haven’t already.

Also, it doesn’t matter where you have to get your sweat on, just make sure you’re enjoying it. Because if you don’t like doing it, chances are your going to be less inclined to keep up with it. Just to give you a couple ideas of how to make your workout fun…

  • Volleyball
  • Basketball
  • Swimming
  • Kickball
  • Baseball
  • Workout with a partner/ spouse
  • Sex
  • Skiing

Point is, it doesn’t matter what you do as long as you getting that body moving and that blood flowing. I never knew how important it was to just…. move. This is even more so true for those of us that sit at a desk all day. Most of us don’t realize how much inactivity impacts our life. Have you ever thought that the reason so many people are dying of unnatural causes and diseases is do to the lack of mobility and drugs? Truth is most of these deaths could be eliminated from diet and exercise alone; if people would just take the time to care more about what they’re putting in their mouth, rather than what tastes good or what feels good. As the saying has always gone; “The best things in life aren’t free.” In this case I’m talking about living a life of abundance, being on a natural high everyday, living a long active life, and loving the body you’re in. And the way to make all of this obtainable is by eating a diet consisting of whole foods, remaining extremely active, and taking chances.

Once you do these things, your life will do a 180. Everything you didn’t like doing so much will start to be things you love doing because without them you would get the chance to become a person that is filled with energy and fearlessness.

 

Have a Beautiful Day!

 

Photo Provided By: Pinterest

Thoughts

Moving!?*$

yellow_guy_crazy_hg_wht1 I swear, moving is becoming the thorn in my side! I wish that we could just find a place, ALREADY! It has been three months since the robbery. Since then, we’ve been looking for apartments. To my surprise, it’s proving to be a lot more difficult than I thought it was. There are so many factors that go in to moving. First of all, if your moving with someone it’s so hard to agree on something. That’s what I find to be our biggest problem.  If I say, ‘Babe, I like this.’ He says, ‘Babe, I don’t like that. Keep looking.’ I’m sure that we have looked through just about every listing in West Palm Beach area. We just can’t agree on anything!

Side note: If you were living with your girlfriend or wife would you make her start paying rent? Let’s say that you all have been together for years and now you have to move. Would things change because you moved? And if they did, what would be the reason for the change? For the women reading this: How would you feel if your husband or boyfriend decided he needed you to start pitching in with the rent? Well for me, it came as a surprise. Imagine, I’m here thinking that I have time to build my business, using the money that I’m saving while he’s taking care of the big bill (rent). Then he springs that on me. I’m fine with it now, because I realized that him asking me to help with rent means he see’s us staying together. What caused me to come to that conclusion was, he has never taken this step with any build valueof the women he dated before me. And it’s not like he’s a young crump snatcher. He’s in his 40’s, so I know what we have has to be serious. Even if that isn’t the case, I’m still fine with it. I’ve been raised to depend on myself. I just figured, while I have the opportunity to build something of value that’s what I should do.

 

 

 

I’m happy we’re taking this step, even though it was a little forced. I’m ready for the new beginning and the added responsibility. My only hope is for success and happiness to come our way. And it wouldn’t hurt to get that nice upstairs apartment with a balcony and washer and dryer.

love looks

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Images Provided By: https://www.thegearpage.net/board/index.php?media/moving-truck.3196/http://terrikrohnconsulting.com/blog/9-strategies-to-build-company-value/https://www.pinterest.com.au/pin/169799848429884459/, https://muzumdar.wordpress.com/2010/11/18/how-to-know-if-you-might-be-going-crazy/