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How it’s gonna be…..

Good Morning!

 

I feel a little bit better today. Not much has changed but the way I feel. I don’t feel as irritated and angry. Sometimes my emotions get the best of me. I’ve realized it’s good to hold your true emotions back sometime.

Well any, there is so much to be grateful for. Sometimes the ways of the world get in the way. You don’t realize how blessed you are because you have something in your life blocking you form that realization. That was me yesterday. I just felt inconvenienced and wanted to shut myself off from the world. I have to admit though, that is me on an everyday basis. Not because I don’t like people, mainly because I want to protect my energy.

People that I’ve grown up with and even my mother thinks I’m a little too sensitive because I take on other people’s problems as my own. I’m sorry! I don’t know how else to be. I’ve always internalized all problems, even if they weren’t mine. I understand that is something I need to work on. That is one of the main reasons I can’t be around certain people; because they will drain me of my energy. Whether you realize it or not it takes a lot of energy to really care about the next person’s problems.

At times I felt that I was an emotional dumping ground. That’s why I’m trying to prepare myself for when I move in with my mom. I know that I’m not going to be able to be home too often because she likes to invite people over; then wants me to come out and greet those people. She just doesn’t understand how uncomfortable that is for me.

Some times I get into moods where I don’t want to talk to anyone. When I’m around her, I have to talk to the people around her; if I don’t, I feel regretful of not saying anything to the other person, because I’m stuck thinking about the way I made them feel because I didn’t acknowledge them.

To be honest it’s a viscous cycle. That’s one of the main reasons I’m a person that like to stay to myself. The only time you’ll see me around other people is when I have to be or when it’s people I know really well and I consider them my friend. Not that I don’t have times when I can talk to complete strangers, because I can also do that; and have lovely conversations with them. I just believe over time I’ve allowed my shyness to dictate the way I live my life.

I have tried working on that, and I’m gonna to continue to work on that. The bad thing about being shy is never feeling free enough to do what you feel, and it’s not good in business either. That is another reason I need to work on getting passed this stage.

Do you know anyone who has this problem? And if that person is you, how are you helping yourself through this process?

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Business Shy

Hey Everyone!!!!

Hope this week has been a good one for you. I know it’s been a very busy one for me. All week long and even before that I was overwhelming myself with the things I knew I had to do, in regards to starting my Shopify store.

I’m not gonna lie, I thought it was going to be easy, I gotta  tell you it’s not. Maybe if I was dropshipping it may have been easier, but it’s a whole nother ball game when you’re putting your products out there to be viewed, sold, and critiqued. I want to say, “I don’t know why it is that this is such a trial for me?” But I know exactly why; because it’s something I put my efforts in, I love doing it and I don’t want to hear the criticism that’s gonna come with it. I know for a fact there’s gonna be criticism, cause with what ever you do there’s always criticism. Sometimes criticism can be an opinion, and other times it could be a fact, either way I’m open to it. I understand getting feedback is always a good thing, because it makes you want to do better. Although sometimes it may make you want to give up. When you feel like that, that’s the time you need to push yourself through it.

Just know I’m scared. I’m scared of failing. There’ve been other things I’ve tried my hand at, some I’m currently working on. But this is the only one a larger number of people have seemed to take interest in. Please don’t think I’m dismissing you (my followers a.k.a my beautiful people). I’m only saying this is the only way at the time I see I can make money while doing something I love.

As many of you know I enjoy writing, but this isn’t paying the bills. I feel bad everyday I don’t check in with you all, but I’m working towards something I see someday becoming something bigger than I could ever imagine. Please understand if I could be here writing posts, without financial concerns, I would be writing everyday all day. Unfortunately I don’t have that luxury. So all I ask is for you all to be patient with me. Starting up an online store isn’t easy.

Also this whole shy thing I have going on, something I’ve dealt with ever since I was a child; Is something that hinders you a great deal in business. What I’ve learned is the extroverts are the ones who seem to do very well in business because they’re not afraid to be the center of attention when need be. Many times for them it doesn’t matter that their product may be garbage; the most important thing is how well you can sale yourself while selling the product. When it comes to business it’s all about trust.

So at this time I’ve been trying to find a less debilitating way to become more extroverted. I know it’s gonna be a struggle, I just hope in the long run it comes full circle.

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