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Lose of Inspiration

Good Morning!!!!

Hope everyone is doing well. I have to say, I’m feeling GREAT!!!! There are so many things I want to do. But when is there not so many things I want to do. The great thing about me feeling this way is, it lets me know I’m back to myself. Something I’ve been praying for, for a while.

Now that I’m back to myself I need to make somethings shake. The problem is with me; I want to do so many things, but I don’t know the actions to take to bring them alive. Over the years there have been so many things I’ve started. Things like a soap business with Grade A soap. The only thing I have No clue how to market it. I definitely know how to spend the money to create it though. Then there’s the book I published Loyalty Love Lies & Betrayal. I published that almost 2 years ago, but the sales are nothing to write home about. Then there’s my podcast Elevated Living and my YouTube channel Lulus Lavish Lathers.  These two are also things I could be working on to generate money. But to be honest all I really know how to do is start things. I never seem to have the focus or motivation it takes to keep it going. But I have a strong feeling that is going to change. Mainly because I really do not want to work for anyone anymore.

The reason I haven’t made it in any of the things I’ve tried yet is….. FEAR. Fear of being in the forefront. You know how you want to be well of but not famous? That’s me. I want the payoff from it, I just don’t want the attention that comes with it. But the longer I sit with this and let life pass me by it becomes more apparent being in the forefront is exactly what I need to do.

My apologies for the short post. But currently this is the only thing on my mine. If this happens to be something you’re also dealing with, maybe we can figure this road block out together.

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That special time of Year

Good Morning Everyone!!!!

How have you all been?! I hope you have good news for me.

First off, I am sincerely sorry for not posting on the regular. But I’m back and getting better as we speak.

We are finally on Winter Break. THANK YOU GOD!!! There is something that comes over you when you know that you’re going to get a full 2 weeks to yourself. As many may know, it’s mainly about the freedom that comes with the break. Especially if you don’t have any obligations to anyone or anything.

One thing I have to admit though; I’m so thankful I’m here with my family. After spending so many years with someone who didn’t want to do anything for any occasion, this is a real change. I have to admit, my Mom is doing it up for the holidays. I’m  a little out of practice when it comes to getting in the Christmas spirit. But I can’t wait to start having fun with revisiting it.

What’s special about this time of YEAR

I forgot how fun this time of year could be. Many of us rush around so much that we find ways to rush right through life. Forgetting the people, things and places we love, because we’re so engrossed in other things we have no control over. We get mad at those who may have made a simple mistake, many times because we’re mad with something we don’t have the power to change.

If you haven’t noticed this time of year is for giving and being thankful for the people you love who are your ‘ride or dies’.  I’m sure over the years the number changes; but if you even have one person in your corner that is willing to go to bat for you, that’s all that counts.

Too often we think if we’re nice to this person and do everything they ask us, that we’ve made a new friend. Many times when we gain friends like that they don’t turn out to be friends, they turn out to be users. It took me a long time to figure this out, but people use you because you set yourself up to be used. It’s your job to let that person know what you will and won’t take. The other thing is, you have to remember in many cases people are like children; if you constantly give them what they want they’re going to act like a spoiled child when it comes to you and demand the same treatment you started out giving them. It’s not that they don’t care about you, it’s only that they’ve becomes accustomed  to treating you like a doormat (because you allowed it.)

Back to what makes this time of year so special. For a lot of us, we get to spend time with family and friends. Picking out things we know they’ll love and expecting that perfect gift from that someone special. Knowing they have know choice but know what to get you for Christmas because you dropped hints over a thousand times. Even aside from that, the great memories that’ll be made with some of the most special people in your life.

I hope you all have a beautiful Winter Break, plenty of fun and you have more than enough chances to make new memories with those you love.

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Question?

Good Morning !!!!

As always I hope everyone is doing well. I’ma tell you one thing; I feel so much better then I’ve been feeling in the last couple of weeks! I guess you could say my body and mind needed the rest. I feel a little guilty saying that, because we’ve only been back in school for about 3 months. I shouldn’t feel bad about saying that though. I’m sure there are a lot of  people just as grateful for this break as I am. There’s probably teachers out there already planning their Summer vacation.

Well… Like I told you all before there’re going to be some things I’m going to be working on bringing to life. First I need your input.

First is:

Which play should I work on producing first?

  • Desire- A tale of  a very gullible girl, who falls in love with someone who appears will never love her back. Not realizing everything she thought she knew was a lie and sh*t was gonna hit the fan a lot sooner than she ever expected.

Or

  • Loyalty: Love, Lies & Betrayal- My first self published book. A tale of  a homosexual couple who has problems just like anyone else. Centered around Jacoby who is an owner of a multimillion dollar record company. But has failed to realize everything he has is due to his loving somewhat crazy husband Stacy. Things start taking a turn for the the worst when Stacy gets wind of just how giving and generous Jacoby has been and has continued to be to his female counter parts.

If you’re interested in either book, minimal entries to Desire can be found here on  ShadsShortStories.com or if you would like to read Loyalty: Love, Lies & Betrayal in its entirety grab a copy @Amazon.com/Loyalty Love Lies & Betrayal.

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Calling All Empaths & HSP’s!!!

Good Morning!!!!

 

Hope all is well…..

How To Write Well (Simple Formula) - Early To RiseIf you are one of my continued supporters I thank you for coming back. As you’ve seen consistency is a true struggle for me. That is mainly because I have a very difficult time writing if there isn’t any emotion tied to it. That’s why most of my posts have been sporadic over the years. I’m really trying to let go and just let it flow, because this in many ways is my therapy. Writing has helped me tremendously over the years. It’s so comforting to be able to get your feelings out using just a paper and pen.

During these last few days I’ve been feeling extremely off kilter. I’m not sure what it is, because the slightest change throws me off. I kind of feel like I’ve spent to much time alone. To be honest I have quite a few issues. I’m not crazy or anything like it. I just feel like I’m going crazy sometimes. I believe my problems come into play when I start to over analyze situations and people; that is something I do often. Noticing Empath Characteristics | HubPages

Many times I’m not sure if I feel this way because it’s the way I truly feel or could it be I’m picking up on other peoples emotions that are around me. I find myself always stuck between 2 emotions. I’m usually pretty happy but if I’m around someone who is talking about something sad or full of anger I tend to take on those emotions. I’ve always felt that was my flaw. As far back as I can remember I was never a normal child. I always excepted people for who they were, never what they looked like or what they had; and I do the same thing till this day.

I guess I struggle with being empathic because there are so many things that come with that. Especially if you don’t know how to protect your energy. I’m sure that’s why I’m not enjoying this gift; because I don’t know how to use it. At times it helps me to develop a deeper connection with people, because I’m able to put myself  in their situation and truly understand where they’re coming from. Other times it’s just “exhausting!!!”

What Are You Available For? How to Protect Your Energy and Honor Your  Boundaries — Chanee MomokoSometimes I wonder if my life would have turned out differently if I didn’t have the same people in my life. I wonder if I would have been this deep feeler. The other thing is my girls (goddaughters) have a touch of me in them. All three of them have displayed some of my traits. Of course they have their parents traits but I can see mine peeking around the vail. I feel extremely blessed to know a little bit of me rubbed off on them.

Lastly, if you’re an Empath and you have figured out how to protect your energy, please leave a comment as to what I can do to gain control over my life and emotions.

 

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Layered like an Onion

What’s up Ya’ll!

Hope everything is going well….

You know how you start thinking of different things that you’ve been through, through out your life? Well that was me the other day. I mean I always think of the different things I’ve been through. Thing is I just don’t understand how I kept my cool through out so many different times. I remember I was working out at the gym I had a person I thought was a friend. She was with a friend of hers. I said ‘Hi” and they proceeded to walk past me. Next thing you know I feel something wet on my back.

I was pissed but didn’t do anything about it because I was so concerned with others seeing me act out of character. Ask me why, I still don’t know till this day. Or the time I got used repeatedly by the same guy. At the time I thought that was the way it was. He would leave come back, leave come back. And I would be there to receive him every time. It was my warped perception of what I thought love was.

At the time I didn’t know what Love looked like between a man and woman, so I want by the examples around me. The sad part was every example there was always heartache and pain. There was never any couple that was happy more then 50% of the time. There were always problems coming about.

But to make a long story short, I’ve realized there is much that I have to talk about. I thought there was nothing I had to offer. But when I begin to think about it, there’s plenty. My only problem is I don’t let many people into my most intimate circle. It’s hard for me to let others see me in the raw. I’m so used to putting up a vail that many times I put up one on myself.

It wasn’t until I spoke to my potential “Dom” that I realized I don’t let that may people see the person I truly am. He pointed it out to me the other day. I just thought it was crazy he knew me on a way deeper level then most people know me.

It’s something about trust someone sexual that will allow you to bare all your layers. I say that because many of my ex’s know me way better than most of my family and friends. I’ve gotten a little better with opening up, but I still have a ways to go. As I’ve said before I do this because I don’t want to taint the image most people have of me. But when it gets down to the meat and potatoes of who I am; I’m a very complex being. Hell, I’ll still figuring my own self out.

One thing’s for sure, with every blog it helps me take a step in the right direction.

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Agoraphobia-Extreme or irrational fear of entering open or crowded places.

Good Morning!!!

So much has changed!!! I have so much love around me and so many people to talk too. Something I didn’t have before. Well let me rephrase that, I am able to receive the love this go around. Before I felt it was too much and needed to get away. It’s not that I didn’t want the love; Really, who doesn’t want love? I just wanted that love from a man so bad that I hadn’t realized I would except anything to be with one. That is besides the point though.

Agoraphobia | Biological disorders | Psychiatry Journal

What I had in mind today are introverts; something I happen to be. The introvert thing is okay though. I’m okay with spending time alone. My main problem is receiving and being comfortable around other people. I hadn’t even thought about this for the past few months because I haven’t had to be around anyone I haven’t wanted to be around. So naturally the fear or shall I say the anxiety that comes with being around others is starting to rise.

That’s because moving back home has been like having an open nerve ending. I say that because my Mother is a very sociable person and I am not. For me being around more than 2 or 3 people is a recipe for anxiety and discomfort. I’ve always been this way. I do better in a one on one setting. I’ve tried to be that person that goes to clubs, parties and things like that; I’m just not set up that way. My anxiety is way to bad for me to be around a lot of people for an extended amount of time.

That’s why I can understand how we have people who never leave their house. Yes some of these people live in the most horrendous living conditions, but their comfortable. I’m sure some people never put in thought when it comes to seeing people like this and thinking about their back story and why they are the way they are. Well for someone like me who could have easily been a person like that; let me say that it is a struggle to get up and be around groups of people for an extended period of time. That is do largely to my tendency to over think and also because I’m extremely empathic.

So I guess what I’m is; If you have someone around you that is extremely sensitive and recluse, try to encourage them, rather than making them feel weird because they are extremely sensitive or anxiety ridden. Just to make it clear as to how it feels going around large groups of people; It’s like being in the ocean, you see the shark coming for you. You try to get away but you’re stuck in a state of shock. It’s like your mind is working overtime but your body just won’t move.

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Nice Guys Finish Last

Sometimes or they act like they don't understand and you're the bad guy when you treat them like they treated you all along. It was no big deal while they were doing it (because "that's just how they are" or "they were just trying to make so and so happy"), but you're just mean when give them they same treatment that they have given you the entire time you've known them!

Good Afternoon !

Have you ever just wondered why, “Nice guys finish last”?

That is something I was just speaking about with my Dad. Never understood why the people who treat you wrong get the upmost respect and then those who actually value you get treated like something on the bottom of your shoe.

Just something I’ve always thought  of that never really made any sense to me… That is until I realized we treat those we want approval from with more care than the ones we know we already have their love and approval. It’s like I already know you’re gonna love me regardless, so I don’t have to put to much effort into pleasing you. It’s something many of us do unconsciously. Many of us don’t want to make anyone feel not appreciated, but sometimes you do. It’s a common human flaw.

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Figuring it out

Good Evening

 

I know this is a little different. I’m so used to writing posts in the morning that it seems a little foreign for me to be writing one right now, but I had to do it.

As always I have a lot on my mind. As you should already know, I’ve moved out of my one bedroom one bath apartment, about 2 weeks ago. I didn’t occupy it alone, I was living with my now ex-boyfriend. Some people may have considered it to be a little messed up the way I left that situation, but I don’t because the way he got me to agree to be on the lease was messed up.

I just say; if you’re not able to pay anything on your own do not agree to share anything with someone you think you are not able to trust totally. Right now I’m in a situation I had no idea I was going to be in. I thought once I moved out and returned the keys that I was in the clear. But now I find out that I’m on the hook for paying for any kinds of damage he may have caused or is causing in that space we both once shared. Like I stated before; I moved out 2 weeks ago and he’s still there.  The thing that has me responsible is the fact that I was the primary for the signing of the lease. At the time I didn’t know what that meant. I learned over time that I am responsible for any and everything that happens with that apartment. Lesson learned! Ill never be doing that again with anyone other than my husband.

I guess sometimes you just have to experience things for yourself. I’ve done that! I’m just hoping this will not be a costly mistake on my part. I’m hoping that he will do the right thing and either move out or renew the lease with only him on it.

Why we could not share the same space any longer.

He ended up being something completely different than what I expected. When we first got together he made it seem as if he was the sweetest person in the world. Then his claws started to show 3yrs in. We had to end up moving, because of constant break-ins.

He told me to checkout a couple different apartment complexes. I finally found one I loved and want to move into. I didn’t know it at the time but he was milking me for what ever he could. When I look back I realized there was nothing I did not do that he asked. I spent so much money trying to make sure he was happy. In return he lost that appreciation he once had for me.

By the end of the 1st year of us living in our new apartment that we both signed for, he wasn’t talking to me. He made me feel as if it was a privilege for him to sign on for another year, At the time I thought it was just a rough patch, not thinking much of it. Then maybe 2 weeks after renewing the lease he pretty much called it quits.

By this time I was over the having to kiss his ass so he would talk to me. So I left it just as it was. I guess he thought he could keep talking to me like I didn’t matter and I would stay. I knew that day I had “NO” intention of spending another miserable year with his lame, boring, trifling ass!

So…. I just say if you are thinking about moving in with a girlfriend or boyfriend, please learn from me. Do not! Make sure you can obtain a space by yourself first.

 

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Hi Possibilities! I’m here for it!

Good Morning Everyone!

I’m feeling pretty good today. There are so many things that are right with the world as there are so many things that are wrong with it. It all depends on your perception of the things around you. It’s so easy to see the negative when the positive is staring you straight in the face. I really never understood why that is. For that positive thing to stand out it has to be more positive than the negative is negative; if you understand where I’m coming from.

But other than positives and negatives, today is going to be the last day I’m going to be at my current residence. I have until the end of the month to move but I figured I would give the last week of peace to my roommate. For you who don’t know we started off in a relationship then the act he had been putting on the first couple of years became too much for him and that’s when he started showing his true colors. For a long time I thought I was over reacting when I had feelings of isolation and being smothered by his controlling ways. Then I got conformation from those around me that I was not crazy for thinking and feeling the way I did. They say what I so desperately did not want to admit; that he was controlling and not the right fit for me…..

I was going to say, ” I wish they would have said something sooner” but I understand why they did not; because they knew I wasn’t ready to hear it and as a result of that I would have possibly cut them out of my life. Then that act would have had me deeper entangled into his web of misery and control.

For the longest time I thought he was so controlling and judgmental because he wanted the best for me and because of the love he had toward me. Later I realized it was for his own peace of mind. See; he had been cheated on serval times and as a result he became paranoid and believed I would do the same. So going in I didn’t realize his foundation was tainted by all those past experiences he had with other women. See it didn’t matter how transparent I was through out, because in the end he accused me of cheating anyway.

So inconclusion I just want to say to the women and men in relationships you have to constantly prove your loyalty; you might as well quit while you’re ahead. I may be wrong but once a person comes into any kind of relationship not trusting the other person, people or thing they’ll never learn to let down their guard and let you in. It’s going to take a hard lesson to open their eyes. So don’t waste your time or energy repeatedly proving yourself to that person when you’ve done nothing wrong to begin with.

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Faith in the process

Good morning! Hope all is well.

There seems to be a lot going on. Then again it feels like it could be my  perception that’s making it seem so. I say that because I chose to do all these things this week.

Imagine this; I’m moving, canceling services, haven’t even begun to do my taxes yet and I have no source of income besides the business I’m currently working to get off the ground.

But one thing I have to make sure I keep is faith. Because I know God hasn’t led me this far for me to give up. I just have to have faith in the journey and keep giving the world what I have to offer.

Through it all you can never give up. If you do how will you ever know your true potential?

Wanted to keep this short and sweet.  I have a very busy day ahead of me. I hope you were able to gain inspiration from this post.

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  • Spearwood- made with essential oils is great for blemishes dark spots and helping to keep the skin soft and supple.
  • Peppermint- Not a new soap but has become a favorite for many of my customers. Provides the skin with a cooling sensation because of the natural menthol peppermint produces. Leaves you feeling refreshed and squeaky clean.
  • Mosaic- Made with natural base oils and fragrance. This soap smells like a perfume but is not at all drying to the skin. Do largely in part to its foundation.
  • Big Red- not sure, but the name may change. Made with fragrance oil and smells devine. It also has a very satisfying lather. Made with only the best oils and butters for your skin.
  • Creamsicle- Very light scent. Feels like heaven on the skin.
  • Ugli- Smell is pleasant. Suitable for an older gentleman. Has the same great lather and feel as every other soap provided.

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