It is in my best interest that you all are doing better than well. I want you all to go out here and make these dreams reality!
I have been on this earth for damn near 40 years. I haven’t felt more alive than I do right now. For a long time I just wanted to have fun and live freely. I haven’t mastered that yet, but I’m really close. I believe closer than I’ve ever been before.
In the past week there has been so many things that have gone in my favor; and I truly thank God for that, literally! I have accomplished more in this week than I have in a whole year! That was mainly because I was uncomfortable and wanted the discomfort to end.
I’ve come to realize and understand how people go from nothing to something. It’s all because they no longer wanted to be uncomfortable. My only prayer is I never allow myself to get comfortable again, because s*** gets done when you’re uncomfortable.
If you find yourself living a life of monotony, please do something to switch it up!!!!
I’m sure I said this before; but you have to get a little uncomfortable to be comfortable. What that means is there are going to be somethings you’re not going to want to do, because it doesn’t pay or it seems to be tedious and a big waste of time. But those are the things you’re going to have to do to get to the places in life you want to be.
As many of us later on find out, life isn’t as easy as some people make it look. Sometimes you feel like your head is barely above the surface. Expenses keep pilling, responsibility seems to keep increasing, but the pay stays the same. Over and over we go through the feelings of worry, frustration, anger, and depression; and not always in that order.
I’ve been told many time that I take everything and everyone in my life to seriously. I’ve been told to lighten up many times; advice I really need to learn to apply to my everyday life. If I don’t, I fear I’m going to make myself sick from worry. But how can the girl who indirectly plans every interaction make this change and let things just happen? I don’t know but I’m willing to learn.
So when I say “Do what you have to do, so later you can do what you wanna do” That means go through all the rough and uncomfortable shifts early, so that by the time you’re in your late 30’s early 40’s you can be comfortable and have your money work for you.
Once this happens for me, I fear I won’t know what to do with myself; in a good way. Just think about it; arriving at a point of wealth many people do not get the chance to obtain.
The only things I want are to have my huge condo, over looking the water, spacious bathroom; tub separated from the show. The main feature of the show is it’s an over the head shower in the center of the bathroom, with a sky light. The last thing a lap dog and to take care of every single person in my family who has and continues to struggle.
Wealth can be built, but you have to be willing to take the risk
Have you ever experienced a point in life where you felt stuck?
I’ve been feeling like this ever since February 20th, 2019 (the day I lost my job of 15yrs). Truthfully, it’s been longer than that. I thought it was going to be something easy to get over, but it hasn’t been. I have a job now, I’m grateful for it. The only problem is I know I could have been doing so much better if I would have followed my own drum instead of the beat of someone else’s.
When I think about it, I realize most of the choices I made in life have been what other people wanted for me. There aren’t that many things that I’ve decided on in my own. I guess I’m scared of being the one to blame when things don’t go well. I’ve realized in life you’re always going to have choices. I should be looking at it as a good thing, because it means life always has an opportunity to change for the better.
You see, so many times we go through things and concentrate on the negativity of the change or the lose, instead of focusing on how the change is going to benefit us or the people around us. It doesn’t have to be a bad thing. Slowly but surely I’ve observed how this change was good for me. For one, I’m way more focused on what I want. I’ve been able to post more regularly, I’ve published a book, spoken at an open mic night, soon will be starting a podcast, started a YouTube channel, and in a couple weeks I’ll be going back to college. I have to say God blessed me when he removed me from that place. At the time I didn’t see it. But little by little I can see his plan unfolding and I’m so grateful for this opportunity to live life again.
I know you all my not understand the emotion behind my words and feelings. But just to let you know where I’m coming from; I use to be someone who had no direction! I had a dog of a boyfriend from 19 to 28 he treated me like I was less than dirt on the bottom of a shoe. He constantly lied, cheated, stole from me, put me down in always imaginable, and disappeared sometimes for months at a time. Then to couple that with a step-father who insulted me, demeaned me any chance he got, and cheated on my mother constantly. That isn’t even the half of it. To be honest I could write a whole novel on my negative interactions with men including my sperm donor. I just don’t feel the need to, not yet anyway.
I have to say I’m grateful, even though sometimes I can’t tell if things are improving. One thing I know; they’re not staying the same.
So if you’re like me and life has brought you 180 you need to continue on that path and know most change is for your good. Even if it seems a little or a lot uncomfortable. For the things we really want in life we are always going to have to experience some discomfort in order to appreciate it when something good comes along.
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