Paranoid

Good Morning Everyone!!!

As always I hope your day is extremely productive and pleasant.

I want to try something different. I want to give you who don’t know how it is to live with paranoia and different phobias and fears a series.

It won’t be too different from my posts now. For the most part I post what I’m experiencing at the current time. Well…. what I want to do is check in with y’all once a week letting you know how I’m dealing with my agoraphobia and paranoia.

So allow me to get this ball rolling. I’ve always been concerned with what others think of me. Many days it consumes me to the point of paralysis. It’s a constant struggle to allow others into my mental space.

I’ve never wanted to be a fully functional adult as bad as I want to now. Over the years I’ve allowed my childhood and different experiences from it to debilitate me from being a carefree spirit.

I know I have it in me, but it’s a struggle to let go of everything I’ve ever learned growing up. It weighs on me like a truck. At times I feel like I’m losing my mind!

The sad part is the only way I’ve managed to find a release is through my writing. The people around me don’t seem to realize how deeply the energy of others affects me.

I’m sure some may think I’m crazy. But like many things it’s debatable.

Well I have to bring this to a close. I have to go back.

If you or anyone you know is experiencing these feelings, please dont brush it off. You never know how deeply what you say may affect them.

As always, thanks so much for reading!